What you see in the photograph above is a decorated bird house from the dollar store that I used a hot glue gun to attach glass stones and tin foil. This is my first attempt at working on a fairy house for the garden. Fairy houses were thought to attract magic and happiness to your home. We can always use more magic in our lives.
you saw the red eyed demon within
staring back at you
through mirror’s reflection
what you judge in the Other
your Ego whispers to destroy or deny
what ever the cost you will lash out
instead of facing your own darkness
I am the Other you projected onto
your Ego hisses to destroy me
struck down by fear of
your own reflection
I am sharing Teal Swan’s video where she discusses what the shadow is, and how to begin to do shadow work. The shadow aspects of the self is a topic that I am interested in exploring for a variety of reasons. When someone passes through the stages of grief it can provide opportunities where we question what we believe about others and ourselves. Often what we judge about others are those aspects of ourselves that we suppress or deny. We can choose to accept those shadow qualities and integrate them into our experience in a way that can be useful if done in a thoughtful manner.
My previous blog post to this one was dated back in December just shortly after my father passed away as a result of a long two year battle with cancer. The grief is still at times very raw and fresh. My sensitive heart needed time away from writing when I could not even string together a coherent thought beyond coping with my day to day experiences. As a mother, my limited energy needed to be channeled towards caring for my son. I realized recently that I have been operating from a state of depletion when I give to others in my various relationships whether that is my spouse, son, family members or my friends. One cannot give to others if you have nothing to share. Veronica Krestow shares a personal experience where she had to make a very difficult choice to put her needs first before those of a loved one, and examines the difference between giving to satisfy your ego and genuinely giving from a space of love. I recently made a similar choice in my own life that was very difficult, but I know intuitively will have a far better result for all those involved. Hope that you can find some wisdom from Veronica sharing her personal story.
Those of you who are followers of this blog may have noticed that I haven’t posted very much recently. Writing has always been a great comfort to me during difficult times. This holiday season brings my family a difficult gift. It is a gift because it is bringing my immediate family closer together as we prepare to say farewell to my father who is in the final stages of his battle with cancer. My Dad has had to let go of me, his daughter, at different points in my life so I could grow into the strong and loving woman that I am today. We had a conversation about a week ago that was the hardest one of my life. I told him that I knew that he was dying, that I loved him and that we would all be alright when it was his time to return home. Letting go of those you love is one of the hardest aspects to sharing unconditional love with others. You feel quite frankly like God has cracked your heart wide open. It slowly comes back together when he fills it with such a deep and true love. That love is the gift that comes during times like these. I am love and so are all of you.
The holiday season is approaching as shoppers bustle through the Store to get their lists completed. Advertisements show off the latest toys that kids will beg their parents for this season. We live in such a commercialized society that we sometimes forget that the holidays celebrated this time of year have religious origins. Whether you are Jewish, Pagan, or Christian they all share the spirit of giving and spending time with family. Last night my father was admitted to hospital and has been sick for some time with cancer. You never know when those memories you are making with loved ones could be the last ones. This season hold your loved ones close. Those who have much less than you it is worth sharing what you have to give even if it is just your time and a smile. The climate of fear we live with in our world today can start to be turned around if we respond to it with love. Love is such a fierce and pure force that it can work miracles. A miracle begins with a small kindness. Will you do someone that small kindness?