The symbolism in Lana Del Rey’s music video “Born to Die” caught my attention for several reasons. The video opens with a couple embracing with an American flag behind them. The video moves between Lana singing (she’s dressed in white) in a Catholic church and scenes of two wild lovers. You have the suggestion that this good girl changes into a wild woman to fit with the desires of the man she loves. She dies a physical death that leads her to moving to heaven. The song can also symbolize the death of a relationship that no longer fits who she really is.
From my own experience, I grew up in a traditional Protestant home where I was a “good girl.” Growing up traditional doctrine never satisfied my search for spiritual answers. I studied other spiritual traditions for many years. Among some of the spiritual traditions that I have studied include Wicca, Hinduism, Christianity, Paganism, Buddhism and Eastern philosophy. It is actually surprising that I returned to Christianity. What spiritual path anyone chooses is something that should be respected as I think that God leads us down the path that is the best for us.
After I was raped, I tried to fill my emptiness by partying, and getting into relationships where I was more a chameleon than myself. When you believe that you are nothing, but damaged goods, then your choices tend to reflect that level of self-loathing. Nothing could chase away the pain and the emptiness that I felt. About four years ago I stopped running from the emptiness and began to face it. I am still doing this on a daily basis. Healing takes a really long time, and the road is a long one. Honestly, the only answer for me was to ask God the questions directly that my heart had been hoping for. It was at that point the tools and teachers I needed to heal began to appear. He has given me answers a little bit at a time. Even though my youth was wild and had some difficult times…I am grateful for the wisdom that I have learned.