Inspiration Number 2
Writers draw inspiration from what we see, or listen to in the world around us on a daily basis. Yesterday, my attention was caught by the poem by Kurt Vonnegut called “Be Soft.” It appeared on a friend’s timeline on her Facebook profile, and the poem struck me just because the topic is one that has been on my mind lately. On my friend, Rebecca’s timeline, she posted another meme about how hard it is to care when so many others don’t give a shit in this world. I commented below the meme that it takes more strength to continue to be your caring self in a world that disagrees with you.
Selena Gomez’s song called “Kill Em With Kindness” was trending on YouTube later on that same morning, so I gave it a listen. Her song inspired me to further explore the topic of how society tries to devalue caring and sensitivity.Her lyrics that “the world can be a nasty place, you know it and I know it,” and “we don’t have to fall from grace” speak to the current state of our world. It is very easy for people who don’t even know you to write nasty and negative comments to things posts via social media. She pointed out how words can harm by, “Your eyes are bullets; your mouth’s a gun.” We can make the choice to: “Put out the fire before igniting” which is to make the choice to choose love over our anger.
From childhood, I was told that I needed to toughen up. You’re too sensitive! Bullying reinforced my false beliefs that being sensitive made me different and why I was targeted them. I believed for a very long time that I was unworthy of love and friendship, because I feel things deeply. Who I am was wrong, bad and unloveable. What hurt me as I grew up was how much sensitivity is so misunderstood by our society. How I felt deeply misunderstood and uncomfortable in my own skin.
I spent a lot of years developing defense mechanisms to protect myself from what I felt could be harm to my heart. Bullying and later trauma led me to develop this armour that did not allow much to get through. It affected my ability to develop authentic relationships with friends, family and my intimate partners. I bought into a fear based mentality that my authentic self wouldn’t be acceptable to them if they got too close.
God had other plans for me through a series of soul connections that came into my life at different times. A soul connection is someone who enters your life for the purpose of healing you, awakening you, and sometimes to work on a spiritual calling. They can be a friend, a family member, a coworker and even an intimate partner. They can challenge your to venture out of your comfort zone, reflect what you need to heal within yourself, or encourage you to pursue your own calling.
There are three soul connections who each taught me something very important at different stages in my life. The first one reminded me of who I really am as a soul, what tools I have within me, and began me on the path of healing myself. The second one, my husband, supported me through much of my healing, is my best friend and challenges me on a daily basis. The third one reflected back to me all the things that I need to accept and love about myself, and how the world needs me in my authentic expression as a divine soul.
It took me a very long time to gather the strength and the courage within myself to be my authentic self. My authentic self is a soul who cares deeply about the world around me. Empathy is a trait that this world needs right now. Compassion is the beautiful flower that emerges from the seed of empathy. When we can feel then we can understand one another as part of the human family.
How I love is where my power resides. Love is the only power that is real. It originates from the Creator where we all come from. Once we realize how much we truly have in common, as human beings, change can start for the better in our world.