Floating on a milk sea,
We drift apart for a time,
Not seeing we are in the same bowl,
We spiral to edge of the galaxy,
Perception of small or infinite,
It’s still the same bowl,
Of the Trinity deciding-
Adam and Eve will reunite,
Like two cheerios in a bowl.
Writers draw inspiration from what we see, or listen to in the world around us on a daily basis. Yesterday, my attention was caught by the poem by Kurt Vonnegut called “Be Soft.” It appeared on a friend’s timeline on her Facebook profile, and the poem struck me just because the topic is one that has been on my mind lately. On my friend, Rebecca’s timeline, she posted another meme about how hard it is to care when so many others don’t give a shit in this world. I commented below the meme that it takes more strength to continue to be your caring self in a world that disagrees with you.
Selena Gomez’s song called “Kill Em With Kindness” was trending on YouTube later on that same morning, so I gave it a listen. Her song inspired me to further explore the topic of how society tries to devalue caring and sensitivity.Her lyrics that “the world can be a nasty place, you know it and I know it,” and “we don’t have to fall from grace” speak to the current state of our world. It is very easy for people who don’t even know you to write nasty and negative comments to things posts via social media. She pointed out how words can harm by, “Your eyes are bullets; your mouth’s a gun.” We can make the choice to: “Put out the fire before igniting” which is to make the choice to choose love over our anger.
From childhood, I was told that I needed to toughen up. You’re too sensitive! Bullying reinforced my false beliefs that being sensitive made me different and why I was targeted them. I believed for a very long time that I was unworthy of love and friendship, because I feel things deeply. Who I am was wrong, bad and unloveable. What hurt me as I grew up was how much sensitivity is so misunderstood by our society. How I felt deeply misunderstood and uncomfortable in my own skin.
I spent a lot of years developing defense mechanisms to protect myself from what I felt could be harm to my heart. Bullying and later trauma led me to develop this armour that did not allow much to get through. It affected my ability to develop authentic relationships with friends, family and my intimate partners. I bought into a fear based mentality that my authentic self wouldn’t be acceptable to them if they got too close.
God had other plans for me through a series of soul connections that came into my life at different times. A soul connection is someone who enters your life for the purpose of healing you, awakening you, and sometimes to work on a spiritual calling. They can be a friend, a family member, a coworker and even an intimate partner. They can challenge your to venture out of your comfort zone, reflect what you need to heal within yourself, or encourage you to pursue your own calling.
There are three soul connections who each taught me something very important at different stages in my life. The first one reminded me of who I really am as a soul, what tools I have within me, and began me on the path of healing myself. The second one, my husband, supported me through much of my healing, is my best friend and challenges me on a daily basis. The third one reflected back to me all the things that I need to accept and love about myself, and how the world needs me in my authentic expression as a divine soul.
It took me a very long time to gather the strength and the courage within myself to be my authentic self. My authentic self is a soul who cares deeply about the world around me. Empathy is a trait that this world needs right now. Compassion is the beautiful flower that emerges from the seed of empathy. When we can feel then we can understand one another as part of the human family.
How I love is where my power resides. Love is the only power that is real. It originates from the Creator where we all come from. Once we realize how much we truly have in common, as human beings, change can start for the better in our world.
You will notice that this week’s posts are going to be organized in a different manner than what I was doing. Previously I was publishing sporadically with either lots of blog posts, or long durations between publication dates. My goal is to aim for publication on Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Each day will revolve around a different theme.
There was a point about two weeks ago where I was thinking about deleting my blog posts, and starting fresh or taking a long break from blogging. I’m not the same person that I was in 2012, so it makes sense that my creative outlet would transform too. A reader sent me an email two weeks ago that prompted me to give the blog another look. She said how she could see how healing it is to connect to others. That was the core reason why I started writing on WordPress about healing, spirituality, love and connection in the first place.
My upcoming posts will be revolving around the content about those topics. If you enjoy what I write then please share my posts via social media, such as, Twitter and Facebook. Whether you are sitting on the bus or in a cafe sipping coffee; I am certain someone near you has known heart break. We hold space for others to be their authentic selves, and to remember their wholeness by expressing the truth of our personal journeys.
What I will be doing on Monday is to write a reflection to start the week based on drawing an oracle card, or a spiritual quotation. I drew the card “Forgiveness” from the Healing with the Angels oracle deck by Doreen Virtue.
“Let go of anger and resentment, and feel yourself healed. You don’t need to forgive the action, just the person, so that you can be at peace.” (Virtue p. 21).
We all face times where someone has said or done something that hurt us. If we are unforgiving then we can slowly poison ourselves with anger and resentment. It takes great strength to forgive someone even if an apology is never received. There are times where I didn’t deserve forgiveness and have received it, so why not give someone else the gift of grace. Forgiveness is a great act of unconditional love. It is also one of the most challenging to do.
It is an even greater act of self love to forgive yourself when you have done or said wrong to others. There is something beautiful when someone tries to right their mistakes and start over. Perhaps we need to show compassion to those who are trying to better themselves . We are imperfect human beings trying to bumble our way through this existence.
There is nothing you could confess that will alter the infinite love I feel for you . It is through my heart that my soul connects to your soul. You are everything that I have ever wanted since I recognized your soul when I first looked into your eyes. You are my first ray of sunshine upon waking. You are my midnight prayful vigil when the rest of the world slumbers. You are what my heart longs during sleepless nights. You are the home that I spent lifetimes seeking.
What do I want your soul to know? The only one who loves you more than me is the God we originate from. With each of my heartbeats I breathe this love into physical reality. It is what fuels the artist’s creations, and how we change the world. It is the only real power there is. As more we open up to this love it will start revolutions.
Love is so much bigger than the clay vessels we are. It helps us to remember our divine nature. We were always whole and unconditionally loved.
You lit my soul on fire once more. I am learning how to work with the soul’s fire. God sheds everything from me that love is not. Much like giving birth, the process is painful and hard. It requires patience and endurance to keep going when you want to give up. We will see our toil bring such a rich harvest for our world.
“Written in Scars” is a very profound and powerful song. We can begin to change our world when we listen to our hearts to reclaim our divinity, our true nature. We connect to each other through our hearts to change what’s around us for the better. Who would like to be part of a revolution of the heart?
I see you,
You hide in the dark.
You may growl…
Bare your teeth…
Try to claw at me…
You draw blood…
I’m not afraid,
You appear ferocious,
Beast to the eyes,
Darkness deceives the mind,
It tries to spin fear tales,
My heart glows a soft light,
Until there is nothing but the light,
We become; luminous beings we are,
Heart to heart.