Wake Me Up

This past week a friend of mine celebrated his 30th birthday, as 2013 is drawing closer to an end I am reflecting on how many changes have happened in the past few years. The song by Avicii titled “Wake Me Up” has two perspectives going on in the song, which is very interesting. On one side you have the youthful perspective of someone bumbling his way through the world. On the other side there are the realizations that come with experience that hopefully do help one to become more awake about life and the world. I am only 34 years old yet I feel like my heart is much older sometimes just through what experiences I had in my twenties and early thirties.


Distracted Busyiness

Buzz…buzz..she’s a little bee

without flowers or fruit

Little lost queen bee

creating hive after hive

one rung on a totem pole

looking down from a too high place

feeling stuck far away…in outer space

mother to all the drones who obey

never questioning perpetual activity

or tiny taste gained of their honey


distracted busyness then Death.

(c) Amanda Wilson 2013

Mirror Play

I touch the reflective glass

you try to pull me through

who is reflected here?

not the daughter…

not the mother…

not the wife…

not the teacher…

not the lover…

not the body I occupy…

can we get lost in each other?

uncertain if you are mirage or hyper reality

searching for someone on the other side

as through the looking glass I step

are you waiting for me there?

so many forms fell away 

and the last one pools at my feet like silk

naked before you I am

dancing mirror play


Out beyond idea…

Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing
and rightdoing there is a field.
I’ll meet you there.

When the soul lies down in that grass
the world is too full to talk about.
― Rumi

Today I was just thinking that love exists outside the boundaries we place upon it. The heart does not choose the conditions upon which we fall in love. Living in a small town I often hear about other people’s business through gossip. It really saddens me the judgement placed upon their choices when really perhaps their hearts did not have a choice in who they ended up loving. If you live in a small town yourself then really think before you snap to a judgement of those whose hearts faced tough choices. We could all do with being a little more open and gentle in heart towards those who end up on a different path than that of our own lives.


Making Connections

A bloom from my garden. 2012 was first year I grew roses.
A bloom from my garden. 2012 was the first year that I grew roses.

The true value of existence is the connectedness that you have going with every other living thing…Everything that happens to me now is a sense of awe…What everyone talks about heaven being, is right here and now. You just have to open up and see what’s really going on.

From Heading Towards Omega by Kenneth Ring

The Nature of Existence

Existential questions comprise the search human beings make to answer why we are here and what is the meaning of our lives. Roger Nygard roamed the globe, interviewing different spiritual leaders and individuals, to address these questions in “The Nature of Existence.” A few of the questions that he tackles includes: “Does God exist?” and “What started the universe?” He even examines the difference between Western and Eastern spiritual belief systems. The documentary is very interesting to watch if you have ever pondered these questions.


In the Deep

In the Deep

something so foreign to most

sounds like hearing an ancient, dead tongue

to gaze in the face of God

before it is time to return home

I remember love so very deep

yearning as soul protests

please allow me to stay here

diving where the dolphins sing

no more thought of burdens or illusions

just perfect crystal blue peace in the deep

hands sent me back and air filled my lungs

uncertain of reasons for my exile

always aching for that Home; a pilgrim wanderer

(c) Amanda Wilson 2012