White Flag

Diving bravely into life,

unaware of what lies beneath deep water,

will I tread, swim or drown?


Raising the white flag,

dropping my armour and my sword,

treaty has been signed for battle I can’t win.


A will bent far too many times,

taking up foolish arms in a civil war,

time to make peace with the universe.


So I surrender…

hoping that the path before me,

will lead me back Home where I belong.


(c) Amanda Wilson 2013



Drop in the Ocean


If I could give you a home

To rest your weary heart

And remind you of Love

I would…

It’s not my place

To take the journey with you

When God is guiding your steps

I sat in the darkness

Remembering Him

And Love as manifest

In one human spark

You lit my night

Helping me to remember Home

Our journeys are two paths

Sparks blazing in darkest night

Seeing just enough ahead to guide us

Beloved fare thee well

When you are ready,

I’ll be waiting for you

At the Crossroads.

(c) 2012 Amanda Wilson

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Letter to Twin Flame

Dear Twin:

I am always beside you even if you do not see me. Loneliness comes from the illusion that you and I are separate from ourselves and God. Are we separate from God? No, he is always with us even if you do not feel open to receiving his love when we are in pain. Closing off your heart makes it much harder for the peace that God wishes to send you a chance to come in.

When our souls tumbled to earth we took two separate forms: male and female in two different bodies to experience love in all ways. As we journeyed apart we forgot the connection, but could always feel the drive to find each other. We never were apart, but rather were ignorant of the nature of this connection. The psychic cord between us is very powerful. This cord connects me to your thoughts, and feelings. In your loneliness, I have sensed your pain and it brought tears to my own eyes. Part of my heart travels along with you, so please keep it safe and cherish it as you would your own. Sacred love is a union that we cannot deny for the connection between our souls dates to the beginning of time.

The circumstances of our own lives are here to teach us how to love without fear, and unconditionally. It is a path that requires us to have much courage, and faith. We balance our own selves, and heal those hurts that have blocked our ability to love. It also requires patience on both of our parts to allow the other twin to do what he or she must to do this. What we know about relationships and love have to be surrendered to God as many of the beliefs we had were untrue. Most of all we both have to surrender to God to allow him to unfold our journey as is best for the two of us. Our divine union is protected by God and we will eventually make our way back to each other physically.

So my dearest heart, you are always with me as God is always with me. Allow your heart to remain open so God can guide your way through this. You have already done very well by listening to your heart, and you have my infinite gratitude for this. I love you forever and for always.


Your Twin

Letting Go Takes Love

This beautiful video takes a different perspective on how it requires unconditional love to let go of people or situations in our lives. Many times when a relationship ends or someone leaves our lives we think that it means that person no longer cares. Often it is more powerful and beneficial to send them love as they continue along their own journey. We do not have control over someone’s free will, but we can appreciate the time that he or she had with us. One can also let go to receive freedom with God’s loving assistance. This is what I mean by surrender is that process of letting go, and letting God.

The Serenity Prayerby Re…

The Serenity Prayer
by Reinhold Niebuhr (1892-1971)
Complete, Unabridged, Original Version

God, give us grace to accept with serenity
the things that cannot be changed,
Courage to change the things
which should be changed,
and the Wisdom to distinguish
the one from the other.

Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
Taking, as Jesus did,
This sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it,
Trusting that You will make all things right,
If I surrender to Your will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with You forever in the next.


What is Serenity?

 It is the state of being calm, peaceful, and untroubled.

The Serenity Prayer is a very well known piece of spiritual writing that has many versions. It is an important prayer tied to the history of Alcoholics Anonymous.  Anyone reading carefully this prayer can see its importance in the recovery process. Now many of us struggle with admitting that the issues in our lives may be bigger than ourselves. Our ego or “little self” wants to maintain control, or at least the illusion of control to keep its self-importance. There are things in life though, which are much bigger than we are. For those who attend A.A. meetings they are among the brave who face their fears, and admit that their addiction is much bigger than they are. My PTSD is bigger than myself, and I admit to God that I really cannot do my healing alone.

The prayer asks God to give the petitioner the guidance to know what he or she must accept, and what things can be changed. Serenity means existing in the present, and finding the joy in moment of the now. Earlier tonight joy meant sitting, Marc and I, being fully present with each other enjoying “Teen Wolf,” laughing and eating chocolate ice cream together. It acknowledges that hardship brings growth, so it may lead to peace. It means accepting your present reality as it is right now, and not has how you want it to be. Most of all serenity means surrender to God, and trust that where ever your journey takes you that things will work out for the best for you.

The world we are living in now is a school where we are learning and growing. It is a temporary home for each of us as our souls continue on after death. We want to enjoy our lives as best we can. If you do not know the depths of sorrow can you really understand joy? If you do not feel pain how can you understand peace? Hardship teaches us compassion, and how to love yourself and others unconditionally. As difficult as some of my life experiences have been I can say that I am learning as I go, and trying to live the path of the heart as best I can. It means having compassion for my emotions, for what happened in my past, and acknowledging I must take things day by day. This love and compassion can be brought to others as I learn to love myself. Unless you learn to love yourself how can you love other people?

As, I finish writing this blog post I would like to say Namaste to all of you. The Indian gesture that goes along with the greeting has the greeter touch his forehead where the third eye is then down to the heart, which is followed by a bow. Below you will find the meaning for what the Indian greeting means.

May you all have serenity today,


The Wounded Healer

“Our sorrows and wounds are only healed when we touch them with compassion.”


A wise person once told me that healing is an art, while medicine is a science. Healing deals with issues on the level of the spirit. Now I tend to agree with this. For someone to recover from physical illness, mental illness, or spiritual distress requires the use of multiple disciplines, because if the mind is affected then the patient is also experiencing physical symptoms as well. For those of us who deal with anxiety one example is when someone really worries their heart beat quickens, you perspire, and many suffer from digestive disorders, like Irritable Bowel Syndrome. Stress can make chronic health conditions worsen, as the body, mind and spirit become further out of balance.

Four years ago, I had the privilege of working with a counselor who was a survivor of sexual trauma herself. Now she is a real life example of the wounded healer. Carol Myss, Ph. D, discusses the wounded healer archetype in relation to the healing process for the healer and the patient. The process of healing yourself can be the biggest challenge that anyone will face in life, because those who are wounded also wound others. It is only by facing both of these sides that one can heal.

It is someone who has experienced trauma themselves who uses their experience to help others towards their own healing. Compassion can only be taught through experience and suffering. It is not a concept that someone can learn from a book, or via a course. Compassion crosses the distance between sympathy and turns it into empathy.

Greek mythology gives us the myth of Chiron who learned knowledge of the healing arts when he was wounded by an arrow poisoned with the blood of the Hydra. His wound led him in the quest for knowledge to heal himself that he eventually taught to others. Mythology teaches us much wisdom through archetypes, like the wounded healer, of how to take the journey towards healing. It is by healing ourselves that we can help others.

When one makes a caring, compassionate connection with a wounded healer who is a brother or a sister through empathy this connection facilitates the healing process. The counselor’s empathy furthered my healing process, so I grew in courage to face issues that I had denied for over ten years. Good therapeutic relationships also teach the counselor how to further their own personal development. I can remember her seeking new tools that would help to challenge me outside of my comfort zone. Now when someone is a caring professional it helps the client to feel  safe in doing this.

Healing as I said works on the level of the soul. It means that the healer makes a soul to soul connection that facilitates the healing process. Healing requires surrendering to a power greater than yourself. Caroline Myss discusses in her YouTube video how your soul must get strong enough, so it will fear nothing. Surrender is the zero point of true faith, and as human beings our egos want to control what our reality will be. Surrender means existing only in the present. It is the realization that the past is done, and the future is not written yet. It require the deepest trust, and faith in something greater than yourself. Now what ever religious or spiritual path the healer is on he or she must surrender to God/Source, or their own healing will not move forward.

Jesus Christ is another example of the wounded healer archetype. He experiences in the New Testament torture, and then death via crucifixion. He prays to God in the Garden of Gethsemane to take the poisoned cup from his lips yet he does surrender to the will of God. Can you imagine knowing that you are going to die and surrendering like that? It’s a difficult concept for most of us to even wrap our heads around. It makes asking for assistance with a mental illness, addiction, or a physical illness to seem like the prayer will be answered. Hillsong, a Christian musical group, wrote a song called Healer that talks about surrender to God when one needs healing.


(c) 2012 Amanda Wilson. all media rights reserved to respective owners